balance

This post was written about a month ago but the issues discussed are still quite relevant.

I had an out of body experience tonight. For dinner I went with a friend to this pizza place and seriously almost started crying it was so good. I also had a legit cannoli for the first time ever… and it was a ton better than the majority of any of my firsts. Heh. I feel like a better person for having eaten there tonight. No joke. It’s kind of ridiculous how happy good food, good music (such as Jack’s new album), or a good run can make me, almost instantaneously.

So I’ve been thinking a lot about balance lately because around this time last week I realized how incredibly off-balance I was. Am. And have been since, like, September. But the only way I know how to approach the problem is to treat the symptoms. I don’t really have a good idea about how to figure out what the underlying issues are. This whole situation reminds me of a time when I was running track hard core and messed up my ankle but continued to train, which in turn resulted in serious injury to my knee that still affect me. I’m concerned that if I keep moving forward and don’t fix whatever kinks there are in my paradigm, I’ll dig myself into a deeper hole and create problems all around.